Better in time

Today was the Senior farewell assembly and it was somewhat emotional. I skipped 2nd, 3rd, and 4th to decorate/clean. The girls and I took our final bow as we were recognized for our hard work this year.. The passing of the banner was intense.. we passed our junior banner to the sophomores and then the seniors passed us the senior banner. I was overwhelmed with emotion as we all hugged each other super tight. The banner said it all.. "SENIOR" ... I'm going to miss the class of 2008 so much.. the class is filled with wonderful and amazing people that I'll find nearly impossible to forget. Sigh..

I've been staying at Brian Do's house this week 'til like 10PM every night to work on Decades. This shit isn't fun, who the hell said Decades is fun. DO THEY KNOW THE DEFINITION OF FUN? FOR ME, it certainly does not fit the description of decades. DECADES IS STRESS X'S INFINITY.

JESS RHYMES WITH STRESS
AND THAT IS WHAT I AM
SO MTOFHAKING STRESSED.
AND RESTLESS
AND FREAKED OUT.
FUCK :(

MAY IS NEVER GOING TO END, FUCK YOU MAY :(
I'M SO MEAN :(

Fire, now it's turning blue

So I'm currently under the blankets in bed with my laptop on this gloomy Sunday morning. I'm very apathetic and lazy to do anything. My room's a mess and I haven't even touched my homework yet. Today I have to go over to Brian Do's house to work on Decades. Stuti's group is already done filming! More pressure and everything.. Ahhhhh damn. We're like I'd say half way done filming..? We need like 2 more segments which is about 10 minutes or so? Not bad but still.. It's due this Friday but all I want to do is curl up in bed and disappear until school's over. :(

Lately, I've been very.. silenced. I don't speak out when I'm upset or something's bothering me. I'm a closed book now. I hate how I have expectations for people and when they don't meet it, I'm frustrated and want to throw rocks at them. I hate expectations.

Memories

On the night of May 1st, I stood above the city lights and made a promise to myself: be more daring and take more risks.

It was a wonderful night with Brenda, Pauline, and Thao. After In&Out, we headed the man-made lake in the rich Evergreen area and had some kick ass conversations about life. As it got dark, we made our way around the lake. We faced the city lights and each of us took turns making a promise to ourselves. We need to go back because Stephanie and MJ needs to be a part of this ritual :) We'll be like the sisterhood of traveling pants hehe.

But anyway, I do find myself fulfilling my promise and I don't give a shit about what anyone has to say. I'm going to live my life the way I want to and no one else can stand in my way.

Less than a month..
It's going to be the best summer of my life.

Oh, hockey boys, damn..
I went with my bestfriend to her little brother's hockey practice and the goalie guy who was helping the little kids.. yeah ;)

Oh, me and my hormones
-Jess

Hmm.. a more aggressive approach to life

You don't know my name

Well, it was quite a horrendous day for me ._. but I had the best weekend ever! Let's recap :)

Saturday morning, I woke up late and felt like absolute crap so then I didn't get to go to the Berryessa Art&Wine Festival to help Steph out. (Sowwie, I labs you!) I was supposed to do some homework but I couldn't get my mind off of the concert. I was too excited so then I loitered around the house and tried to waste time. It finally turned 4PM and then Brenda picked me up to go get our haircut. I've been going to the same hair stylist since 2006 and I absolutely adore him! Johnny, he's one hilarious wild guy! We had some weird ass conversations about boys, dating, college, and summer. My hair turned out that way I hoped! It's more stylish, short, and daring, which is exactly the type of attitude I want to go for nowadays. I waited for Brenda to get her hair done then we paid and headed out. We dropped her brother off at home, stayed at her house for a bit, then we decided to head out to dinner. We went to Sonoma Chicken Coop and ordered a whole bunch of good stuff. We sat outside and the weather was absolutely gorgeous. We had rooster booster half chicken, pesto pasta, salad, etc. Delicious! Then I got in a long ass line and ordered fondue! Mmmmmmmmmm, it was great :) xept for the oranges, nasty. After, it was about 7:40PM and we still had time to kill so we started walking towards the HP pavillion. Got there around 8PM and got in line :) They started to let us in and then we went to our seats. Right above the stage :) Waited and finally 9PM, the concert began.

JORDIN SPARKS - She is beautiful and all the songs (except for one) she sang, I knew. I sang along and it was just wonderful! She's amazing :) 9:30PM she said goodbye then we waited for Ne-yo aka my baby daddy.

NE-YO: OMG I WANT YOU! It was, "wow" he is such a great performer. All the songs he sang<3 Ah, he is sooooooo soooo SEXY! Incredibly sexy! Rawrrr! He performed for a good 45 minutes then said goodbye. Then, we all waited for Alicia Keys.

She came out around 10ish and wow, she's beautiful, sexy, intelligent, cute, amazing, I LOVE HER. I would totally marry her. Brenda and I sang along and screamed. Ah, it was just.. *speechless. NO WORDS CAN EXPLAIN THE GREAT FEELING I RECEIVED FROM LISTENING AND WATCHING HER PERFORMANCE. Truly amazing. Then, around 12:40AM, it ended with "If I Ain't Got You". Boooo, :( Then we headed home.

I would love to re-live the experience of this concert and love my bestfriend for buying me the concert tickets. I was waiting for Alicia Keys to go on tour, and once I found out her tour dates, I KNEW I HAD TO GO!

Sunday, I didn't even really get to sleep in and stayed in bed half of the day doing my history book annotated timeline. Went to Sister's house for Mother's Day dinner. Yummy!

Stephanie converted me to facebook :D

Today sucked.. didn't do so hot on my math test, my book test in history was alright, and I found out I had an assignment quiz in chemistry. I should have went to class last Friday -__-;;

I finished homework pretty early today and really should do my psychology research paper but... GOSSIP GIRL AND OTH ARE ON TONIGHT :)

Next concert - Wild 949 Boostmobile WildJam concert!!!!! (Flo Rida, Colby O'Donis, Danity Kane, Ray J, Jesse McCartney, Sean Kingston, Pitbull, The Dey, Nelly) JUNE 12TH, DAY BEFORE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL :) GREAT SEATS TOO!!! LOWER LEVEL, ROW 5!!!

Empty

The AP US history test was brutal but absolutely OVER and done with. Multiple choice questions were a mix of easy and difficult questions. The DBQ question was what I was hoping for, and the free response questions can kiss my ass. Whatever, I'm done with my first AP test. My next one is on Wednesday and it's english language. Uh yeah.. multiple choice questions and three essays, again. I'm so done with this school year, you don't even know. I hate going to class, I really do. Especially if I just had a 3 hours and fifteen minute test about the stupid events that occurred in this country from day one. I hella did NOT want to go to any of my classes. I hate having a 7th period. I hate chemistry. I hate Mr. Barbour. Stupid stupid stupid class.

ANYWAY

I start my first job next Saturday at 7AM. Pretty excited! I get to wear an apron. I'm going to feel like Rachel from Friends when she worked at the coffee shop. Hehe.

Tomorrow is the Alicia Keys concert and I am absolutely excited. Partially because I get to dress up and not come home until midnight because the concert starts pretty late. Hmm.. community service, homework, haircut, dinner, and concert. There's my Saturday for you.

Sunday = absolute finish math homework, study my ass off for math test, finish english act 1 study guide questions, and ask Stephanie Duran what is up with our research paper for psychology. Mothereff, I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of trying. I'm just so done with people and their bullshit.

We just don't care

Hm.. May 1st, 2008. I can't believe, can you? Less than two months until my junior year is over. Not to be all dramatic but I'm approaching my LAST YEAR IN HIGH SCHOOL. Like seriously? I just can't believe it.

I still remember the first day of high school.. my freshmen year. I was an absolute geek! I used the campus map to get around and highlighted where my classes would be. It was the best :) You know what? I even got in trouble on my first day! My science teacher called home ahaha ON MY FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. Thanks to Thao, Monique, and Mark. The four of us sat together and oh how interesting that turned out to be. We did some cricket activity and the four of us kept laughing and talking, or rather they did and I tried not to, but it's so hard not to when you sit with them! So I got my phone call home on the first day of high school. 8D

But really though, my stomach begins to churn and cringe when I hear and see the word senior. I'm actually going to attend college NEXT YEAR = 2009! Scared shitless.

But I'm really excited for the incoming school year because of my classes and extracurriculars. I went to see my counselor today. She's so cool! Anyway, I dropped physiology off of my schedule and bumped up to AP Government. I'm already taking physics so it'd be pointless to take another lab science, especially if I'm not even into the whole science subject. My counselor said I made a smart decision :) but I give a lot of credit to my friend Chau for guiding me through my final decision. So my schedule for next year:

AP Literature
AP Calculus
AP Government/Econ
Physic
Leadership
Ballet

I'm so excited to take ballet :) Even though it's the beginners course and it's all basics, I don't give! I took it when I was younger along with jazz, tap, etc. It's going to be fantabulous :)

Tomorrow I'm going to have a movie date with Stephanie and Brenda :) Forgetting Sarah Marshall and Harold and Kumar! I cannot wait :)

SATs Saturday! Prom venue trip Saturday!

OH
I almost forgot...
I FOUND A SUMMER JOB :)
MAIN ST. BAGEL NEXT TO PIZZA CALI :)
I've always wanted to work there and used to call in and ask if they were hiring. It's my late birthday present, if you recall my first blog about what I really want for my birthday = car and job. Half way there.. car eh whatever :)

oooh, I let my grades slip enough, time to get back on track.

Night
-Jess