The Scientist

It's 10:30PM and I'm somewhat on schedule.. I did everything I wanted to accomplish tonight except for my heavy-load of math homework. It's not due tomorrow so I don't need to trip but I do need to get it done this weekend. Speaking of this weekend, I have a lot of homework to do :( History SG, lots of math homework, article&ad #1 for magazine project, study guide on stress for psychology, ~70 passes for BOTC, class painting, etc... and my chemistry teacher is probably going to assign a review guide..

My eye is clearing up, hallelujah! Back to wearing contacts on Monday. I haven't worn glasses for an entire week since 8th grade or something..

I've been having powerful sneezes lately.. b/c I used to sneeze but it sounded like a cough so no one would say bless you but now, I mean it's an actual AHHHHHHHHHHHCHOOOOOOOOOOOO. Caaaahrazy.

I love the Cabinet of 2009. The girls, the chemistry, the looooooooove<3>

1973

Well, what a Wednesday.

It's going to be 70 degrees tomorrow = sunshine

-Jess

Happy Birthday Thao! I love you<3

Here's to winter break/ski week 2008:

Friday noon Steph picked me up and we headed to the mall :) Bonding + shopping time! I had a great time and even bought my birthday outfit :) Cutestuff and it makes me even more excited for my birthday even though I have nothing planned, yet. Yay for shopping with Steph and almond crunch pretzels with caramel dipping sauce--it's the shit. Went home and actually did some homework.. then my cousin Ally came over around 7ish. We ended up driving around, going to Target, and eating at Pizza California. My cousin is one hell of a wild girl! There was some guy in a white car and I guess he was looking at her like he knew her or something so what does Ally decide to do? Chase up to him, follow his ass on the freeway, and speed 95MPH to catch up to him. Well after sharing a large salad and a slice of ham&pinapple pizza, we headed to my house and just chilled. I was watching Friends on my laptop and she was playing Trauma Center on Nintendo DS.

Saturday morning went to Jazzercise with my mama. Worked out standing up for 1 hr 1/2 which was quite the work out. Went home, got ready, then headed out with parents to my grandma for a visit. After, we went to Ally's house for her daddy's one year anniversary [RIP]. Parents left so I left with Ally to Michael's--to buy shit for my american dream project--, Great Mall--to go shopping and get her ears pierced--, and Target--to develop some photos and buy glitter glue for me. She dropped me home and I began to work on my english project. Tiffany called and she ended up coming over. She helped with my project (glue, stencil, etc) and we pigged out while watching some Hugh Hefner. It was quite interesting.. Around 11:30, we decided to camp out and watch Friends. She left a little later and I eventually fell asleep..

Sunday morning woke up around 10:45AM then got ready to leave for temple. Lots of my relatives were there and some whom I haven't seen for about a year. My little boy cousin was the most adorable thing ever! He ran up to me and said "I miss you Jessika! I am six years old now! I like you Jessika and love you a lot!" I gave that boy lots of hugs and kisses! :) My cousin Amy was also there and for those who don't know, Amy and I are soul sisters. Seriously though, straight up soul sisters. It was nice seeing my mom's side of the family. My parents and I left around 2PM and went home.. I finished my english project and it looks pretty kick ass :) Who knows how I came up with such an idea but it was while I was exercising yesterday morning. :D

I am currently home alone.. wondering how to spend my Sunday night before school returns tomorrow.. I would really like to grab a cup of coffee from Starbucks, get warm and cozy inside, and have a deep conversation with a close friend. Hmm..

Have fun finishing homework on this wonderful Sunday night.

xoxo,
Jessika

baby it's cold outside

I can honestly say that it has been quite a year so far, year 2008. I've been experimenting around, testing my limits, and exploring new boundaries.

I started off the year with the passing of my two friends, both of whom I had a strong friendship with at the beginning, but as time passed by, our friendship disintegrated. (RIP Tinh Do & Chris Pizarro) I was fortunate enough to attend Tinh's funeral on that windy and rainy day. I wasn't sure if the overall funeral was making it hard for me to breath or the burning inscents. I figured it was a combination of both so I went outside by myself for a moment alone. It was refreshing, enticing, or I don't ..this feeling of freshness I gained from my surroundings. It was still pouring and the crisp cool air brushed against my cheeks and it was quite a sensual experience. Unfortunately, I was able to pay my respects to Tinh but not Chris. I hope he understands because of the situation I was going through at the time of his viewing. They were both great guys and even though I didn't put forth much effort to spend time with them when our friendship was fading, I'll still savor the good times.

This also was the year that I began to push my limits with my parents and decided to sneak out. My first attempt was successful as I was able to come home at 6AM but the second time, not so much. I was caught redhanded and owned up to my parents. The consequence of my actions cost me both friendships. Both friendships that I hold closely and dearly to my heart. As corny as that may be, I was crushed, broken, and definitely feeling lost that weekend because of the precedents my father set. Things will never be the same between the three of us and it sucks that it had to take such an experience as that to ruin our friendship.

As for academics, I finished the first semester off with all A's and one B+ in AP Comp/Lang(which still counts as an A weighted). I suppose the A- I recieved in AP US History cancels out the B I recieved in spanish 2 in sophomore year so as of right now, I believe I have about a 4.0 weighted. Shrugs because my SAT scores are whatever and I will definitely be taking them again. I want to score 2000+ which is a little ambitious but whatever, we will definitely see then.

I recently learned about my grandma's sickness(the C word) and it hasn't really hit me yet. Am I close to her? When I was younger, I was extremely close and drawn to her over my parents. She took care of me and was a great grandma, until I entered my teenager years and my mother felt that it was appropriate to fill my head with bad information about my grandma. All the information built up and the final product, I think, was resentment, which is quite a shame. Well, oh well about this for now...

I' have been living for 16 years and 11 months, which means that my 17th birthday is coming up. Last year I threw a sober party and recieved good feedback on the party. I definitely enjoyed celebrating my birthday last year but this year, I am quite apathetic towards doing anything for my birthday, which is a shocker, because I am one to be all over planning my birthday celebrating. I thought about taking a weekend trip to Half-moon Bay and rent out a hotel, basically have a good time away from San Jose. Yeah, I suppose that is asking for a bit too much so I was browsing around for a party bus, which is a litle too much to ask for too. This year, I prefer something more close and intimate, but no dinner celebration. I don't know, what to do for my birthday this year.

Yesterday I hung out with Toogle and was able to browse for cars online and go mini-job hunting. I would sacrific celebrating my birthday for a car this year. Six months w/ a license did me no good. I hate to depend on others for rides . In addition, I hope I will get a call for a job I applied to.. as well. I hope it isn't too much to ask for this year for my birthday. A car and a job. Two gifts that will allow me to be more independent.

Well, I am supposed to be having lunch with my father and sister right now, but the lunch got postponed to 1PM. -__-;;

xoxo

Jessika